#1st drawing of the year

“ESCAPE”

For me, drawing is a form of stress relief. Over the past three years, I’ve enjoyed expressing my emotions through black and white artwork. I use canvas or sometimes just a sketchbook, with charcoal or pencils as my tools.

The funny thing is, I can only finish a drawing when my mind feels completely overwhelmed, when emotions build up, and I can no longer contain them. That’s when I need to draw something to let it all out, to release every bad feeling inside. That’s why my drawing subjects are always me, myself. I can’t just draw something or someone randomly, I need inspiration, or at least a photo as my reference. So next time, if I post a drawing, it means am not okay. hahaha candaaaaaaa anjir. 🤪

That’s also why it’s really hard for me to draw someone else unless I feel a deep connection to them. That person has to be special because I put my emotions into every touch, every part of it.

So let me make this clear:
I DON’T ACCEPT DRAWING REQUESTS! CAMKAN ITUUH 🤪🫵

The Story Behind “Escape”

January hit me like a punch in the face, such a warm welcome from 2025, huh? That’s how this “Escape,” was born. It felt like everything was happening all at once, I wanted to run away, to escape from my own life, but the problem was… where to go? How?

Then I realized, it was just fear inside my head. One of my biggest struggles is that I never trust myself. But this time, I talked to a professional, my friends, my supervisor, and they all helped me face everything.

Maybe it wouldn’t seem like a big deal to anyone else, but for me, it was something, because I had never done that before. I won’t go into detail about what happened (honestly, I probably just overcomplicated it in my own head)

But in the end, I realized how positive and supportive my environment actually is. The real problem? Me. I was the one being toxic to myself.

Hahahaha every story needs an antagonist, right? And in mine, that role is played by… ME. 😂

And so, here it is:
“Escape” – 8 January 2025

Here is the link to see the video :p

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DGjhtDqtMml/?igsh=OHZ4Z3ZxaWU3cm4=

See yaaaa in my next drawing review, hope you guys enjoy it 😋